Yikes, August 25 was my last posting. So many amazing things happened in the last 3 weeks. Knowing that I really needed to get back to this blog I was running through the possibilities of topics while perusing my fb friends posts. I thought I would write about how I apparently need to learn how to speak in public to get this non profit off the ground. But instead my friend Quinn had this scripture posted today.
“And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force.”
This caught my attention for many reasons. First off Quinn teased me mercilessly from ages 11-18 so that’s the first picture of Quinn I always have in my head, not necessarily a bible scholar. Secondly, my maiden name is Rhoads which Quinn found quite humerous. For years I was taunted by Quinn yelling from anywhere the line from Back to the Future “Roads, where we’re going we don’t need Roads!” I’m just saying, I wouldn’t of pegged him for a John The Baptist fan. Secondly, I was really excited to see a scripture posted on his page because tomorrow Quinn will become the attorney over my proceedings to establish a non-profit Christian maternity home. There’s just something about a man of faith that practices law that makes you think that guy might be kicking butts and taking names. For me, there’s a lot of power there. Finally, Quinn’s explanation for his post really caught my attention.
“John was dramatic and extraordinary. I think the context was that those that will inherit the Kingdom of Heaven will do so because they pursue it with violent and reckless abandon…..not by passive luck, folly, or with ease. The gift is free, but it’s pursuit takes all we have and all thy God has given us. The vision is one of Gods Saints violently pressing themselves into Heaven by a relentless and exhaustive pursuit of standing in Christ and his work on the cross. Interesting passage.”
I’m not losing steam by any definition on my pursuit of this dream but I do feel a little alone and that can get slightly overwhelming. I don’t feel like a martyr or the Little Red Hen I guess I just really feel the weight of responsibility. At this point in the game if I don’t keep pressing forward this thing will die in the water. Each day God gives me one or two people to talk to , one or two resources to check out, one or two documents to read. Every day the blessings are new and at a pace I can handle. However, I’m worried about making decisions from a business standpoint that I will regret later. I should cut myself some slack, I’VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE! However, I am a bit of a control freak and perfectionist and therefore… I worry. I’m trying to surround myself with positive quality people who do know what they are doing. I’m trying to make prayer led decisions and also make them wisely and not off the cuff. I’m trying to walk by faith which at this point feels more like a controlled fall but I’m good with that. I guess this is what it looks like when a control freak tries to live like someone running through life with “reckless abandon” a.k.a. trusting fully in God.
So today, I am encouraged by a childhood friend who reminds me that the things I want in this life will not come to me by “passive luck, folly, or ease.” I need to continue in a “relentless and exhaustive pursuit” of God and His will for my life. Please pray God reveals a board of directors for the Sparrows Nest and that He will show me what the plan is for funding.