Wrestling with let it go and let God lyrics


I was going to apologize for my "Debby Downer Eyeore" published posts of late but then I remembered this blog is for me to have a voice and you can choose how to interact or not. I'll not scare you with the really black unpublished posts. I'll circle back around to more positive, helpful posts … Continue reading Wrestling with let it go and let God lyrics

Invisibleness for Self-Preservation


I'm struggling to get out of bed these days. I can blame it on daylight savings time. On this particular morning I could blame it on the spring rain darkening and calming my bedroom even more. I can't seem to bounce out of bed at my typical 5:15-5:30 a.m. when normally I  wake up before … Continue reading Invisibleness for Self-Preservation

The responsibility replaces opportunity sometimes


Around 11:30 p.m. last night I was walking from Legacy Park to where I had parked my car at the Cottleville Post Office. It's maybe a four block walk of the ten or so that are available in super safe although not so sober Cottleville. I had many offers for rides to my car including … Continue reading The responsibility replaces opportunity sometimes

Fair Warning: Why one of my nicknames is “Etch”


Sometimes I don't write because I think I don't have anything worth saying. Sometimes I don't write because I don't want to sit behind this computer for another minute. Sometimes I  don't realize how many minutes, hours, or days have passed since I last wrote anything. Sometimes I don't write because I can't get the … Continue reading Fair Warning: Why one of my nicknames is “Etch”

If I got hit by a bus today


A few members of our team have shared some interesting conversations and follow up emails last week. The main subject is if I die. In and of itself this topic is a bit disconcerting. But, we were mostly talking about properly sharing and storing passwords to our bank accounts, document storage, and other important pieces … Continue reading If I got hit by a bus today

Contemplating the Universe: Memorial Day


I am a huge Avenger fan. In fact, I've loved all the individual movies leading up to The Avengers. I'm fascinated with each characters passion of protecting America and it's inhabitants. I like to think we're still one nation under God with the tagline, "whether you believe it or see it." One of my favorite … Continue reading Contemplating the Universe: Memorial Day

Please don’t tell me to stand still


I didn't wake up very rested this morning. Which usually means I was doing battle in my head all night. And because of a certain word tattoed on my mind's eye this morning I think I was wrestling with God, *sigh again. STAND This is one of the worst things in the world you can … Continue reading Please don’t tell me to stand still

Random thoughts on chicken faith


I have been given a vision. Clear as day. Yet I've only been given a pen light to see the path through the forest at night. The purpose is easy to see. Yet I walk by blind faith because the path is short sighted. My confidence is in the Father of my salvation. Yet I'm … Continue reading Random thoughts on chicken faith

Hit In The Teeth


I got hit in the teeth this afternoon. By a group of individuals I thought loved me. And it knocked the breath out of me and knocked me to my knees. Isaiah 54:15 - If anyone does attack you, it will not be my doing; whoever attacks you will surrender to you. However, within minutes … Continue reading Hit In The Teeth

Coming From Dirt and Red Kites: A Confession


I'm not sure why I'm surprised when I call out to God and He answers so poignantly. It has to be a reflection of how little faith I still have. In one breath I pronounce He can move mountains. But in my mind, I think "but maybe not for me, maybe not now, maybe not … Continue reading Coming From Dirt and Red Kites: A Confession