əˈbīd: Conversations with God

a·bide əˈbīd/ verb accept or act in accordance with (a rule, decision, or recommendation). "I said I would abide by their decision" synonyms: comply with, obey, observe, follow, keep to, hold to, conform to, adhere to, stick to, stand by, act in accordance with, uphold, heed, accept, go along with, acknowledge, respect, defer to "he expected everybody to abide by the rules" 2. informal be unable to tolerate (someone or something). "if there is … Continue reading əˈbīd: Conversations with God

An expectation of peace

I don't actually know where Stone Temple Pilots got their name. If I give some thought to it, my mind conjures up some cross between Indiana Jones and Raiders of the Lost Ark and the closing scene of Casablanca. I'm not really sure why I think of two iconic movies to relate to a thrashing … Continue reading An expectation of peace

I know this sound

I flipped my laptop closed and murmured my daily mantra. Today is done, gone the sun, try try again tomorrow. I clicked off my bedside lamp and slid my laptop under my bed for safe keeping. I set my phone for 5:34 a.m. and turned on my sleep fan app. I rolled over on my … Continue reading I know this sound

Join me in another mid-thought

I'm intrigued when potential volunteers approach me about serving at The Sparrow's Nest. We have the volunteers who at first could care less what they do as it is something to be helpful. Clean toilets? With gladness! Sort through seedy donations? Absolutely! Others don't really know what they want to do but they have a … Continue reading Join me in another mid-thought

I can only tell my story: HOPE Through Anxiety

I've been called Intense. Spastic. Dramatic. Fierce. Passionate. A force of nature. All of those descriptors come with the same level of emotions which can be extremely overwhelming to manage. And then enters anxiety. As early as four years old I can remember having anxiety and panic attacks. My mind would race, my heart would feel like … Continue reading I can only tell my story: HOPE Through Anxiety

Don’t shut down for too long with today’s insanity.

Don't turn away today. But don't be a sick spectator either. If you're like me, your heart is breaking, blood pressure is rising, dark images are pressing into you, and even darker thoughts are racing through your mind. I seem to be consumed with putting a finger on where my loved ones are at every … Continue reading Don’t shut down for too long with today’s insanity.

Why I Won’t Be Saying A Certain Phrase Anymore: Becoming The Leader I Already Am

My son told me he had to write a short paper on a great leader. He told me he wanted to write about me but he wasn't sure what kind of great leader I was. I could relate. Up until recently I'm not sure I could tell you who I was a leader either. I spent … Continue reading Why I Won’t Be Saying A Certain Phrase Anymore: Becoming The Leader I Already Am

How Many Questions She Must Have Had

By this time that night how many times do you think she had counted his fingers and toes? As she held the red chicken legged being do you think she questioned his origin of anything holy? In between her body recovering from excruciating pain do you think she laughed at the absurdity of the situation? … Continue reading How Many Questions She Must Have Had

Blessed With Burden

Hey God, It's going good. You continue to freakishly bless me. I don't have to tell you that I'm tired. Like really tired. Like fall in bed exhausted and wake up fatigued. It's been a long haul. So much more complicated than I could have ever imagined. I ask myself if I'm making it more … Continue reading Blessed With Burden

Why I’m your bumbly ole favorite video game character

I'm not so much a systems and procedures type person. I've never successfully been able to have a "Laundry Day." I don't really have a set workout routine. I try to plan menus but I end up going to the grocery store 3 times a week without my list. I love calendars, notebooks, and especially … Continue reading Why I’m your bumbly ole favorite video game character